by loss4words
Dear Edward,
I...I don't know what to say. What can be said? You are gone, and with you, you have taken my surrogate family. You have taken Alice, who is the only person I could think to talk to about all of this. How could you leave? How was it possible for those words to come from your beautiful, perfect lips?
How do I live, Edward? With you not here, the scenery has changed to black and white when it used to be so vibrant. At this point I wouldn't even mind sepia, everything is so dull, dusty.
I miss Emmett already. Not even a full day you have all been gone and I miss him making fun of my clumsiness. And Jasper, always there to make me "feel" comfortable. It wasn't his fault, Edward. Don't you see that? And you have to know that he blames himself through all of this, but it's not his fault.
I'm sure Rose is ecstatic about all of this. Ugh.
I was growing so use to having a mother nearby again. God, I miss Esme. Sure, her cooking tended to be a bit "off," but she tried. And she loved me. I felt her love in every embrace she offered.
I don't even know what to say about Carlisle. He is just Carlisle, the matriarch of the family and always sacrificing himself in anyway he can. I miss his witty banter and his stories about the Crucifix.
Damnit, Edward. You jumped to conclusions. You have to come back. I need you to come back. There is no sun or moon or stars without you, just a bleak, black sky.
Always yours,
Bella
